Begin Before You’re Ready

One of the biggest tricks we can play on ourselves is the idea that we will begin when we are ready.

That we will begin… TO LIVE OUR LIVES… when things feel different, look different, are different.

We tell ourselves that when we have that dream career, then we will be happy. When we have more money, then we will spend time doing what we love. When we look better, thinner, curvier, (whatever-er), then we will love and accept our bodies. When the holidays are over, we will take time for ourselves. When our work is meaningful and fulfilling then we will know our self worth.

When when when….

Why do we expect our lives to be better in the future?

Why do I think that when I’m traveling the world and saving the planet and helping people, THEN I will be completely fulfilled? Why not now?

Why do I think I will feel differently in the future? The future doesn’t even exist. The “future” is created out of this very moment and if I am not loving and accepting of myself and my life right now, why do I expect that to change at a later point in time? Chances are, in “the future” there will be a whole slew of other things that I won’t be content with.

Better start learning how to be happy in this moment, Riah.

Raise your hand if your life doesn’t look exactly the way you want it to. You can’t see it, but my hand is in the air.

Raise your hand if you have a general sense of where you are going (or at least where you want to go) but you don’t have a roadmap. (And not because you didn’t buy one, but because it’s never been made, because no one else has gone before you).

But raise your hand if you also trust that no matter what, at each step of your journey, the path will be revealed to you at the exact right time. The only thing that is required of you is to show up , exactly as you are and to keep showing up, not when, not then, but NOW.

Some mornings I wake up feeling inspired and excited to create my life. Other days I wake up feeling a little bit down and out. Maybe it’s just me, maybe I’m moody as fu**, or maybe I’m just human. (Just to be clear, my life is awesome. I am super grateful for everything that I am experiencing. But again, I’m human.)

But the lesson is this: whatever the day, whatever the mood, whatever the weather, this is my life. This is where I am. I do not want to run from it. I want to embrace it and use it as a jumping place for the REST OF MY LIFE. 

Every moment is an opportunity for transformation.

I’m posting today not because I love what I’m writing or because I’m feeling particularly inspired, but because it’s part of my process.

Today I am choosing to show up exactly as I am, with what I’ve got. And it’s enough, it’s got to be. 

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